Sorry, I'm using my journal to yet rant about something. It is, granted, a very little, almost insignificant something, but for no conceivable reason it disturbed me. I went to this videogame store a couple days ago, and just out of the blue I saw this banner with a hot cheerleader chick wielding a chainsaw... and then, oh the horror, a freaking guy's living, screaming head attached to her belt as a trophy! The first thing I thought (couldn't help it, actually) was "What is this femi-Nazi s*** doing in a videogame store?". I mean, in freaking public view! To me it screamed "Look at me, I am a mean, hot dominatrix and I can easily have any guy's head willingly handed to me if I want it to". And that's obviously my paranoid me thinking there.

Now, don't get me wrong. I am actually a pro-feminist and I believe women should have equal opportunities in life as men, and be respected and valued as people. After all, I have a mother and a sister who I love very much and who have been victims of machist actions (which pissed me off when I heard about). But the whole idea of the "female domination" I don't get. I don't even get how some dudes seem to have this desire to be subdued, even ridiculed and tortured, by hot females just because they're hot. WTF? I, personally, am horrified by the very notion of being submitted and enslaved by anyone, hot chicks included. Just as machism is disgusting, so is femi-Nazism because both encourage inequality, violence and hatred.

It also made me thought, evidently, about my fetish. Although my main fantasies focus on sexy females losing their heads, I do admit that occasionally I fantasize of losing my own head (mostly through magical means; i.e. not dying by the beheading), but mostly keeping my detached/severed head for my own enjoyment. I would even occasionally fantasize about giving my head to a girl so long as she treated it with "love and tenderness" (if you know what I mean), and she gave me hers in return (or eventually gave my own head back). So, no damn submission involved there... at all. I would dread, even in fantasy, handing my own detached/severed head to a chick as an act of her dominance over me, just because I have a penis. Nor in real life I would be a damn slave of a girl just because she's my girlfriend or because I like her. Yeah, it is complicated.
I know, I know, what I'm talking about here seems like a double-standard considering some of my own art, but it's a fantasy and thus I make my own rules in my own little world. A girl can have fantasies/ fetishes of decapitating men for her own enjoyment; no problem. As long as I don't find out, I'm fine. And that banner obviously wasn't descrete in that regard, not to me.

Wow, look what a stupid little banner at a store made me think and feel. That's the problem of having too much time on my hands (damn unemployment, LOL). I had to let it out somewhere, and because of its obvious headless-fetishism nature, this is the ideal place. Rant over, and thanks for reading.

By the way, has anyone else been disturbed or shocked by stupid, little things you find at random, and felt like the reaction was a bit over the top?


P.S. I know now the story behind that videogame, but the banner I still dread, LOL.